Repost: The Buds and The Bees

Flashback-Friday-3DToday’s Flashback Friday will be a little different from the ones before. Today I would like to share a post with you that I shared several months ago, but wrote back in 2012. I felt this would be a good time to reshare this for those who missed it the first time.

The Buds and The Bees

I wanted to share with you all a piece that I wrote back in 2012. It was a defining moment in my life, one that helped change my whole path and potentially my future.

“God, I don’t understand… I can’t make sense of all this. Why is this happening to me? Why now?” The hurt and angry tears streamed down my face as I leaned against the porch railing, my legs tucked against myself, curled in a fetal position. It’s spring time, I can feel it. The air smells fresh and the sun shines down on the earth with rays of hope.
blooming_flowers_by_nichierose-d4tlvveA crazy idea.

I stand up and slowly lower my bare feet on to the damp earth and breathe a sigh of relief. I take a step, and another. Walk to the muddy patch and stare into the murky waters.

“God, it hurts so bad….” A tear lands in the puddle and then another. For once it is not raining a pathetic fallacy overhead. I walk to the trees, staring up into them and I see the buds. They are so beautiful, but my heart is so wounded.
timsA bee buzzes from one bud to the next, stealing the pollen from each to bring back to his hive. I look at the buds once red and full, and they look empty and white. I want to make the bee stop. He’s ruining the buds! But then I remember, the bee must do this for the tree to become full and beautiful.

“This is what I am doing…”
budding_tree_by_nichierose-d4tlvlgI hear HIS voice and I suddenly understand. He’s taking me, breaking me so that I might become more. He’s taking away my buds so that I might bloom. I trust HIM and smile as I walk back to that shady space on the porch.

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