This week is Eating Disorder Awareness Week, so our team at Defying Shadows decided that we would join the discussion and help break down any misconceptions about this disorder. Eating Disorders are one of the many “Shadows” that we want to offer encouragement and help for those who are struggling with these issues.
Today I had planned for someone to share their story of their experience and struggle with an eating disorder. Unfortunately, that wasn’t in the cards for today, so instead I decided to share my experiences on the subject.
I would like to start off by saying that I have never actually struggled with an eating disorder. I did however struggle with how I felt about my physical appearance and weight. Looking back, I would love to fit back into those size three jeans, or even the size six for that matter. I would love to have the abs that I had in High School, and the ability to fit into a size small t-shirt. But to have these things back I would have to trade my self confidence, my positive self image, and my healthy eating habits.
I remember being so upset when I went from a size 6 to a size 8. I remember being told that I was a healthy weight and I should be proud of what I have. I remember feeling ashamed. Looking back, my heart breaks for the girl that I was. I realize how many others there are out there like this, and it makes my heart ache.
If there is one thing I can say to you today, it is to love yourself. Remember you are beautiful. Beauty isn’t dependent on what shape or size. Beauty is built on what is inside your heart. So tell me, what is in your heart? I hope what you find there is as beautiful as I dream it to be.