Susanna Page is a student in San Francisco, CA. She loves to write and is a blogger for Young Minds Advocacy Project and the International Bipolar Foundation. She is a field mental advocate for the American Foundation of Suicide Prevention. She loves to write about mental health and young adults. She is in the beginning stages of connecting with University newspapers in colleges in San Francisco persuading each University to include a column in every issue that has some form of mental health information or personal story of someone that is living with a mental illness. On her free time she likes to adventure around San Francisco, write, and cuddle with her dog Hamish.
I think the most devilish thing something like a mental health condition can do to a person is haunt them with memories that affects their state of mind on a daily basis. Many people experience this, not just ones with a mental health condition. Everyone asks themselves, “How can I be the best I can be?” but I think one with a mental health condition, this question can be the most beneficial thing they do during the day.
Personally, I compare myself to others, defining the ‘best I can be’ by others actions and successes. That is not what we want to do. From the beginning we base our actions on the people around us. We learn how to interact and understand the emotions like love and sadness from others. To find who we are, we have to trust our instincts in the world and to hone into our inner self, and leave the inner critic in the dust.
So, how can we be the best that we can be? First of all we should not be aiming for ‘the best’ that we can be. We all need to be a person that we can put up with, be sympathetic towards, and to allow your inner critic to direct your life in areas that challenge your self esteem and your heart to lead you to fulfillment, happiness, and contentment. We are always a work in progress, and we only put ourselves down by not believing we have it in ourselves to thrive.
I have bipolar disorder, and on a daily basis I feel like something is testing me about whether the rest of society is superior than me and whether I am strong and able to deal with it. Often I feel like skipping class, to just drive around, taking photographs, printing them out, and finding enjoyment in creativity and art. There are two forms of life, one that we live, and then a life that is run by society. We have to be able to juggle both, finding ourselves between the maze of people trying to life just like us, and most likely feeling the struggle too.
We have to balance what we enjoy, with things we do not, and only then can we find who we are, where we thrive, who we affect, and what our heart wants from our life.