It’s been a rough few months…

Can I be super duper honest with you for a second?

I’ve been fighting one of the hardest periods of depression and anxiety I’ve had in a long time. I went on vacation for two weeks and took a break from work in hopes that it would help.

I tried working yesterday (less than 24 hours after coming home) and it took me literally three hours before having a panic attack. THREE HOURS.

I was almost off my medication and now I’m back on a new medication to help… I felt completely defeated. But I’m going to trust the doctors that it’s going to help… eventually. There’s no shame in taking medication.

I’ve been through periods like this in the past – and they typically landed me in a hospital. I’ve been pretty open about that. The difference this time is that I’ve learned how to cope. I’m learning to set boundaries for myself.

So yesterday I did one task that I knew would help with the situation that caused my anxiety for 30 minutes. And then I gave myself the freedom to deal with the anxiety itself — I laid in bed for an hour in the fetal position.

And I won’t ever apologize for taking a break ever again. Because I took a two-week break and life didn’t end. My business is still here. The world won’t fall apart because you’re having a rough time. So let’s stop putting the weight of that on our shoulders, shall we?

By accepting your anxiety, your feelings and emotions, you’re HELPING yourself. Pushing them aside or getting angry about them only makes it worse.

Why feel guilty or beat ourselves up for something we have no control over? I’d rather spend that time dealing with it and taking care of myself.

Now when I get anxious, I verbally challenge the anxiety and if I get mad at myself for having anxiety, I stop myself and do something to take care of myself. It’s hard to be mad at yourself when you’re doing something kind for yourself!


Nichole is a Social Media Marketing Manager, business owner, daughter and friend. She has a Marketing Diploma and a Certificate of Christian Theology. She is an avid coffee lover who enjoys a good movie or book. She takes great joy in organizing, scheduling, and volunteering. Her passion for volunteerism extends specifically to those who are hurting, whether it is emotionally, physically, or mentally.

Nichole is certified to provide Mental Health First Aid, which means she can provide immediate support and guidance in a safe environment, comfortably have a conversation about mental health-related issues and offer professional and other supports. This does NOT make Nichole a psychologist, or a counselor. It simply gives her the tools to direct people to the help they need.

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